today's diary..

salam..

may Allah gives me the strength to be able stand on my own feet..i really missed my old besties..i really wish that the time can go back into the past..the reality is..this can't be happen even you are crying with blood..Fatimah, Dis, Esah, Shikin, Zarina, Kufa..i really miss all of you!!!!crew 18..miss you too..T.T..to khalilah the sujudiehardfan i really want to meet you before you are going to Spain..let's catch Super Show 3 together!!! (i know it is not confirmed yet)..i don't know..sometimes, i wish i can stay and live in my dream..so i will not wake up to watch my own reality..why my life is so difficult??i'm screaming inside!!!why??2010 is my hardest year for me since i was born!!!!!!!the obstacles and challenges keep bugging my life!!!it's hard to play a role as a human..but what can i do??only me and myself know the difficulties i went through..only me and myself have to face the difficulties..WHY THIS HAPPEN AT ME?????!!!now..i just keep myself cool and restrain my eyes from bursting the tears..azea, come on..you are strong and you are not the old azea who was too naive!!!wake up!!!!!!are you too stupid just giving up like this????!!