today's diary..

salam..

may Allah gives me the strength to be able stand on my own feet..i really missed my old besties..i really wish that the time can go back into the past..the reality is..this can't be happen even you are crying with blood..Fatimah, Dis, Esah, Shikin, Zarina, Kufa..i really miss all of you!!!!crew 18..miss you too..T.T..to khalilah the sujudiehardfan i really want to meet you before you are going to Spain..let's catch Super Show 3 together!!! (i know it is not confirmed yet)..i don't know..sometimes, i wish i can stay and live in my dream..so i will not wake up to watch my own reality..why my life is so difficult??i'm screaming inside!!!why??2010 is my hardest year for me since i was born!!!!!!!the obstacles and challenges keep bugging my life!!!it's hard to play a role as a human..but what can i do??only me and myself know the difficulties i went through..only me and myself have to face the difficulties..WHY THIS HAPPEN AT ME?????!!!now..i just keep myself cool and restrain my eyes from bursting the tears..azea, come on..you are strong and you are not the old azea who was too naive!!!wake up!!!!!!are you too stupid just giving up like this????!!

Golden Disk Awards winners list..

Disk DaesangWinner: SNSD

Samsung YEPP Digital DaesangWinner: 2AM

Disk BonsangWinners:DJ DOC, SHINee, SNSD, Super Junior, BoA

Digital BonsangWinners:2AM, IU, Miss A, CN Blue, Lee Seunggi

Samsung YEPP Newcomers’ AwardsWinners:BEAST, Secret, Sistar

Ceci Popularity AwardsWinners:SNSD, SHINee

MSN Asian Popularity Award Winner: Super Junior

COSMOPOLITAN Rock Award Winner: F.T Island

Hip Hop AwardWinner: Supreme Team

Production AwardWinner: Hong Seungsong

Achievement AwardWinner: Park Choonsuk

nak bebel pasal Golden Music Awards!!!!

Salam..

ni la first time aku bebel kat blog dalam bahasa melayu..yearggghhhh!!!!>.<

semalam aku tengok GDA live stream punyer..tp agak x puas hati!!!da la asyik lag jer kejenyer!!!hampeh btol..time FT Island dpt award n perform la dye nk lag!!!issshhh..terbakar glerhhh!!naseb bek la aku ni jenis yg penyabar orgnyer..(cehhhh..) lagi satu GDA cam x berapa nk gempak la..aissshhh!!!naseb bek FTI dapat la 1 award..T.T..xpe FT keep fighting for next year..lagi satu yg paling aku x puas hati thp gaban ialah....MENGAPA SUPER JUNIOR XDAPAT DAESANG AWARD???????!!!!!!!!!!!satu kepelikan di situ..bukannyer aku benci gler kat SOSI dapat award 2..tapi aku rase SJ lg layak dapat award ..kepada SONE aku bukan nk bash SOSI..aku kaji dr hardwork SJ yg jelas giler2..Eeteuk(leader SJ) cakap dia harap sangat SJ bleh dapat award daesang utk tahun ni..sblom dye ngan Heechul pegi army..tp nmpaknye impian dia semalam musnah cm2 jer..

HAIIISSSHHH..aku plak yg rase sedey walopon aku ni bukannye ELF sepenuh masa..after award semalam aku pon meluahkan ketidakpuasan hati aku kat fb bersama beberapa ELF yg len..aku siap trending #sorrysuperjunior kat twitter smlm!!!..xleh blah glerh!!tp srius semalam mmg ELF sedunia trending #sorrysuperjunior kat twitter n dalam mase sejam da ada kat 2nd place top trending..giler..tapi ape2 pon aku tetap rasa Super Junior k-pop artist yg the best..dorg sangat talented coz bg aku setiap kali dorg pnyer perfomance ialah DAEBAKK!!tp ntah le kenape GDA  xnampak talent dorg yg thp pro 2..aku rase perfomance kemuncak GDA semalam mmgla perfomance SJ-Bonamana..giler gempakkk!!!tp ending GDA cm #$%^!!!(x bek kluarkan pkataan tsebot)..=.=

disebabkan kebengangan thp melampau aku juz mmpu bbel kat ELF len jer..bkn bleh wat pe pon..jd untuk melahirkan rase tabek spring aku kat SJ..aku bubuh la lagu SJ-Bonamana kat blog aku nehh..^^

ADIOS!!

presentations??O.o

Salam..

Today i just want to memorize back in BEL 120 classes..this week is really tiring me..presentations and presentations..=.="..it's not okay as i 'm having flu+cough+sore throat..haizzzz..what can i do is just do the presentations..that's it!my first presentation is about speech..i told about 'black or white'..i thought it wouldn't be a hot topic for that day..i started my presentation with many slurred words..=.=..quite embarrassing..then, i just go on with my presentation..at first, it's just okay..but..as i reaching a topic that focused on 'black' colour..the questions started to be attacked towards me!!oh my..i just have to be cool to answer the question with little confident..ughhh..patient was the only thing left in me at that time..T.T..the other presentation is today..well, we had to present or more like lecturing each other about grammar..i had got about adverbs...seriously my grammar is real disaster!!!!HUWAA...i couldn't answer their questions confidently as i was not really sure if my answers were correct..but THANKS GOD!!i made it..fuhhhh..it's over for now..well the presentations..still many presentations and assignments awaiting me..(*sigh)..next presentations are also about grammar for both BEL 120 and BEL 130..the thing is..i got the same topic that i have to present..wohhhoooo!!>.<

COME ON AZEA KEEP FIGHTING!!!!!

huh???

Assalamualaikum!!!

Not much to say this night!!!because i'm really tired..what i want to write is..i went to the Village Mall  and then went to Tesco..it's quite fun because just me and kak ana were there..but before that we went for karaoke!!!soo cool!!!first song was..Nobody from Wonder Girls???huahuahuahua!!!we sang 'bout 10 songs!!felt so great and like all my stress was gone with the songs..cheeehhhh..urmmm...last but not least..my dinner for tonight is...SUSHI!!!this is my first time trying to eat Japanese food!!!?LOL!!azea you are really out-dated..whatever!!!

like nasi lemak jerrr..

sushi!!!!

salmon eggs!!!yummmm!!>.<

BEL 120 today..

salam..this morning we were having our BEL 120 class..and today is our speaking day!!!!everyone have to talk in front of the class.Everyone were given respective topics to talk about..mine was 'black and white'.but i'm not presenting it yet. (huh..~.~) but it's okay i'll present it on the next class. we were give five minutes to babble about our own topic. i think the best presenter is Lily!!! she is rock!!! she presented about 'early marriage'. it's quite interesting topic i think..(wooooo..azea..what are you thinking right now..)..she said.. "early marriage should be encouraged and better to find your partner if you can't handle the hormone.." KAHKAHKAHKAHKAH!!!that's funny..LOL!! she was so slumber and talking like a professional!!! next, i want to talk about Anis' talk..wooo..she is so amazing!!!she spoke very fluently!! I adore you Anis!!my head spinning right now..not much to say..adiossss!!!

ommmo!!!